me as an ELF..

back then, 12 months before..
i dont know and never heard anything about kpop group.
i'm just an ordinary, normal people.

that do the same thing everyday.
and do not have interest on anything.

but, its all started when my sister introduced me to Bonamana ,

we're attracted to their dancing skill..
i dont know from where my sister found out about them..

because of that, we try to find all info about super junior and keep searching for all their MV.
and yeah, we also find their group picture to regonized who is who.

because before we really know each of them, we thought siwon is the leader and zhoumi and leeteuk is the same person.
and by seeing the picture, at the first look, my older sister choosed kyuhyun as her bias, my younger sister choosed leeteuk , and me, i choosed heenim without knowing anything about him.
not enough of that, we tried to find all super junior show and downloaded it all..
its because we want to know who is super junior, their character and personalities,
and a month after that, i've officially become an ELF, ELF stand for Ever Lasting Friends..

until now, its has been 11 months with them. .
i didnt choose to love super junior this much
i didnt ask to be an ELF.

and i never thought that i will know super junior and become their fans.

this is the first time i'm really addicted and obsessed with something and someone.
i still remember that i've asked to my friend before. "how does it feel when you obsessed to someone since you really love "robert pattinson"really much? because i never get the feeling of being excited and addicted like this before" and she said.. "you'll experienced it some day..

and now i realize its my time.. what she said is true.. i will feel it someday..
and i have feel it right now. .

i enjoyed all the time i spend for super junior..
plus, from 11 months before. i never felt the happiness and fun eventhough on the outside i'm maybe seems happy with my life..
but because suju, at least they make me happy whenever i watch their mv and shows.

it is hurt being as an ELF,
because when theres something bad happen to them, i will feel the pain..
when they cry, i cried with them.

okay, i know.. for my friend, i might seems like crazy and weird crying for the 15 boys,
but my ELFriend know what i feel.. we shared the same stories and feeling eventhough we didnt know each other so much..

watching them, make me stronger.. with all their inspired quotes, make me believe in myself that i am strong enough to deal with all the problem..
and the friendshio between 15 boys make me apprciate my friends more..

seriously speaking, my friends doesnt know me, doesnt know what i like, doesnt know why i like them, doesnt know the real reason why i choose suju. its kinda disappoint me..

i respct what they wanna do, what they like but when i talk about suju,and enjoy suju song alone, what does they say only
"korea again and again"

is it wrong for me to have my own interest??
i dont care if you dont want to know about kpop.. i never ask you to like them..
just let me alone, doing my thing..
sorry here, i'm not psycho.
I JUST WANT YOU TO RESPECT WHAT I LOVE.

because its my first time feeling like this.. do not spoil it please..

and you will feel what i've felt someday..
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p/s : sorry for the bad english, i'm not major in it :P