semalam dah 20 hari after my birthday. and actually its always the sad birthday ever. the only one who always remember it, that girl. only her.. being friend since i'm form 2. the rest? hmm.
i keep remembering myself, do not think about others. but i'll end up doing it and its always make my heart in pain after that. i admit that i'm always experience mental breakdown myself because i always confuse of either i should be selfish or think of others.
tadika, sekolah rendah, sekolah menengah, i know everyone of them and still remember their faces and name.
hmm.. to my only friend that i know when i first entered kolej, i'm okay now. really okay. dont want to see you being shy infront of me now, just let it be like before.. since i'm totally okay now..
and to my all friend in kolej yang pernah jadik kwn dr sem 1 smpai sekarang, i never forget about all of you. and mybe after this final sem you wont see me anymore since i'll try to hide myself as far as possible but still i'll never forget you and even if i want to, i dont think i can..
trust me i still remember all my primary school friend, my secondary school friend at taman seraya and btho but i dont know if they still rmember me..
i'm a type of person that will avoid people once i feel like they dont want me anymore. since i really can feel it . so please do not think i forget you if i didnt contact you or like i dont care bout you , but think yourself what make me be like that to you. it more looks like i somehow didnt have the gut to make the first move because i'm afraid i'll disturb others.
its true that no one can read what in my mind and no one fully understand me. bye
